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This week has been one heck of a week and one to expect this time of the year. I never know how my body will react to this year and how I will act in general to the people around me. This year was a dozy because so many other changes are happening in our life! Avery is off at school so much, Eisley will soon be and Brian is starting to not need me as much either and well I am a bit lost over it. I am on a journey to start finding my own things again but I want to find a happy medium for all of us. It didnt help that I was on women time and the Ashlyn's day. It was rough and I am slowly digging out how I feel about things.

I had a great workout week last week and hope to carry that one again this week. I didn't get oodles of points for HBBC but I did a great job for me and I cant wait to keep carrying that on.

I hope you all are doing great and able to get your run in for the Hope Endure 5k! I plan on doing my a couple of times this week. 

emotions and food penpals! those go together right?

It is Friday and I have so many emotions going on in my head these days. I basically broke down to Brian last night and told him I am literally going crazy! I feel like I always need to be doing something, changing something, avoid other things and I am over it. My house looks fine (but needs a nice deep cleaning), I look fine but need to focus on making time for myself and I need to stop feeling like these "things" will help me avoid the real issues that I am having (self analysis, guess my college education is at least getting some use on me!). As I am making sure to get a workout in of some sort each day, its slowly getting better and hopefully with some new vitamins and stuff things can feel better!

Thursday was not the best day, my sunglasses got run over and I have no idea how! Avery went to a friends house when I was putting on Eisley's shoes so I couldn't find her and freaked out, she is now grounded to staying in only our front yard and cant even go out for a few minutes alone because she didn't listen or obey. She is not a happy camper at all. Lastly we got a note from our homeowners saying we left our trashcans out when we didn't at all and it really ticks me off!  The main reason I get so worked up is because it says it tears down the value of our neighborhood, which is fine if they hadn't allowed the people right across the street from me to paint the house ORANGE!! Yes we live in a newer neighborhood with all the wonderful homeowner rules but they wanted to sell the stinking house so Arizona Clay was allowed. I honestly don't care too much other than the value of my house is less to some and they are worked about a nice green trashcan,  ugh!

One bright note to this major Debbie Downer post is that its Foodie Penpal Day! I had a fun time this month and got some crazy goodies I have never seen or heard of so that is always fun! Umm the fruit chews were awfully tasty! Thanks Rachel for the fun foodie package!!

My kids loved the jam cookies and I am always a sucker for Apple Butter! They totally opened them even before I could get a pic in! 

renewing motivational monday

It has been a weird week here at our house. The girls have been pretty healthy but the family we spent time with over the past week have been in and out of the doctors office with illness and the word whopping cough has gone around a couple of times. I didn't get hit with the bug as bad as they did but I have had a nasty cough.  A few times it sounded like I was dying and a waiter at a restaurant we had dinner at the other night probably thought I was on my last meal because he kept asking if I was okay and looked very sad for me. Brian and I felt bad because he really seemed like we hated the place but really I was just having trouble eating with all the coughing. Lesson learned, stay at home the whole time you have a crazy cough!

I thought about just ignoring the dang cough but I decided to let my body rest or it would linger for weeks. I am still coughing a lot but its breaking up, so I feel like I can get back in gear today! I love a new days renewing feeling and I have high hopes for this week! We have family pictures today and I have a few meetings this week but otherwise I am hoping to just enjoy the week and have some me time. I am setting up a plan for running, workout and goals and hoping to sit to them!  I am starting training soon for a half I am doing in my city next year and from that point will work on training for my marathon. I know if I train properly that I can do a full because my body can handle it if I listen to it. I might not be the faster runner, I might not be the leanest runner but I am motivated to cross a full off my bucket list and 

I so often tell myself I will start a new thing on Monday or next week instead of realizing that each new morning brings a new light to a new day! I can get a renewed sense of feeling each day if I allow myself. Maybe today I wont get everything I need to get done but I always have tomorrow and somethings can always wait. 

Other than our family pictures and one errand, I plan on devoting this day to getting our menu planned out, my fitness calendar worked out and babysitters planned out if needed and allowing myself to feel renewed because I need it! Good by silly sickness, this house is over you!